Thursday, June 14, 2012

Blog issues

Anyone else having issues with loggin in and posting to Blogger? It seems my server is no longer supported. Bummer. Just when I've been in a writing mood... my blogsite gives out on me.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Mother's Day....

Even though I wrote this May 18th, I still wanted to post it because it was an honest expression of emotion that I typically deal with every year around this particular holiday. May 18th, 2012 Feeling just a tad blue lately and I know exactly why. It’s the annual time of year that seems to affect my mood level even though I try really hard for it not to. It’s that hole inside that makes its presence known every year about this time. Mother’s day. I try to ignore it and put the feelings on the back burner but they never stay there for long. Memories, thoughts and emotions creep in even though I try to busy myself to keep them at bay. Still they come. I am taken back to the past and even though I am very content and happy in my life today, there is still a deep sadness that rises to the surface. I wonder what it would have been like for me to have a mother. I envy people that celebrate Mother’s day with their mother. I would love to honor my mother for always being there for me and loving me unconditionally. To honor her for all the sacrifices she made to give her child the best possible life she could. But I can’t do that. I can’t do that because that is not who my mother was or who she will ever be. I feel cheated that I never got to experience that deep bond between a mother and her child. I am no longer angry… I used to be, however those feelings have slowly dissipated. I am long past that at this point in my life, but it doesn’t stop me from feeling sad about the lack of something I needed so much. It’s a deep wound. It’s something that goes to the very center of my core and even as I write I can feel the tears welling up and the catch in my throat. I don’t know if this open wound will ever truly go away. As much as I have tried throughout my life to fill that empty void and hole inside of me, I have never been successful. I don’t think it can be filled. I am taken back to when I was a small child and how much I desperately wanted a mother so much so that I tried many times replacing her with a substitute mother figure. That pattern has repeated throughout my life, always searching for a mother to bond with. As much as I want that mother figure in my life, I have found that nobody can replace or fill that role. It is what it is. I have learned to mother and nurture myself in many ways and yet it is still not the same. It never takes away that gaping hole, that feeling of abandonment. It never takes away the loss of what I have always yearned for. It never fills that emptiness inside. There are many layers of the pain inside. First there is the layer of abandonment and it always leaves me with questions to which there are no answers. Why would a mother choose to leave her six month old baby? How can that ever be justified? Was there something wrong with me that she just didn’t want to take care of me anymore? I know deep inside it never had anything to do with me but rather it was her own choices she made, but still it is a question that needs an answer. I as a woman, cannot possibly fathom just taking off and leaving my child behind, my own flesh and blood, and just walking away. There is no reasoning that could ever justify that to me. Not only did she do it once with me, but she made that same choice again when she left my half-brother behind in her 2nd marriage in the same manner she abandoned me. Secondly, there is the layer of pain that she did not protect me. A mother is supposed to protect her children and she didn’t. A mother is supposed to be there for her child in times of need and she wasn’t. She wasn’t there for any of the milestones in my life. She wasn’t there for my first days of school, she wasn’t there for my birthdays, or the many holidays. She wasn’t there to teach me and show me things that mothers typically do for their children. She wasn’t there to love me unconditionally. In fact I never felt love from her at all. It was a strained and uncomfortable relationship and affection was virtually non-existent. Even when there were attempts at affection, it seemed forced and not genuine. Then there’s the third layer of pain… her behavior. Whereas the affection was withheld from me, there was plenty to go around to the male species of the world. Overtly so. It was very painful to see her so overtly sexual with men. Not only because it was very uncomfortable for any child to witness that from a parent, but because on a deeper level I could not understand how she could behave in that manner. Where was the respect and the decency? It was deeply embarrassing for me to witness and it was difficult for me to comprehend her actions and behaviors with what I was experiencing. I was being harmed and sexually abused, something I wanted no part of nor should a child ever have to experience that, while my mother seemed to revel engaging in sexual behaviors. She was proud of using her body as a dancer for men, she craved the sexual nature of attracting men for attention. I wanted no part of that in any shape way or form and it was so conflicting for me to reconcile those feelings and emotions of witnessing that through the eyes of a child. As an adult I have a better understanding that my mother must have felt her value and her worth by displaying those types of behaviors. She was seeking love and acceptance herself, although be it in an unhealthy way… however it does not take the pain away that I felt as a child about the situation. I have arrived at the conclusion that my mother did not have the skills or the basic knowledge of how to be a real mother to me. Some women are natural born nurturers. My mother was not. I realize now that my mother had her own issues and insecurities and probably had abuse in her life too. Does that negate her responsibility to me her child? No it doesn’t. Long ago I asked myself an important question. I asked myself if I met this woman as a stranger, would she be somebody I would be friends with or have in my life? The answer was no. So why did I keep hanging onto the hope that one day she would miraculously be the mother I always wanted and needed? The answer was she wouldn’t ever be that person for me, so I had to let go of that dream. It’s been difficult. I was okay with severing the relationship, what little there actually was. Although I am content with that decision for my own life, it still does not stop the sadness that creeps in every year on this celebrated Spring day. I have to be okay with that… so I embrace my sadness for what it is and I pick myself up and move forward with courage and dignity.

Friday, September 16, 2011

An Interview With Myself

So, are you ready to do this interview?
As ready as I will ever be. Ask away!

Okay, let’s start off with a simple one. What is your dream job?
That's easy...To be a writer and photographer.

What’s stopping you from doing those things?
Money- or rather the fear of not making enough.

What if money were out of the equation?
Well yeah, for sure I would do it if I didn’t have to be dependant upon money to survive.

Don’t you think that doing something you are passionate about will bring success?
Yes, but what if it doesn’t.

That sounds like your fear talking.

What would be the harm in trying it. Like a test run?

What do you want out of life?
To be happy and loved and to have a feeling of security.

Do you have those things now?
Yes, I do and I feel very blessed.

If you could change one thing about your life, what would it be?
To be more financially secure enough to not have to worry about those things. To be able to do the things I want to do in life without financial limitations.

Isn’t that everyone’s wish- to win the lottery and get rich?
Yes, I suppose it is however it is more than just that. I don’t desire wealth to blow it on frivilous things or to waste it. I want to be able to do things I love to do and to enjoy every second of my life to get the most I can out of my life by harnessing the things I am passionate about. I want to be able to help others in a way that isn’t always possible without funds.

So money brings happiness?
No, not at all. It is your attitude about life that brings happiness and joy. The richest person on earth could be the most miserable unhappy person in the world so wealth does not automatically equal happiness. Money just makes things easier.

What else would you like to change about your life?
To be more in tune with nature and nurture my spirituality a lot more than I do.

What is preventing that from happening right now?
Me not making the time to do it.

Are you too busy that you can’t take time for it?
No, it is a matter of me not making it a focus or priority right now.

But it is certainly something you can change right, because if it were important to you then it would be a priority.
That is correct.

What do you value in life?
My spouse, my family and friends. Loving others and being feeling love and acceptance. I value honesty and integrity greatly and trust means everything to me. If you don’t have those three things, you don’t have a solid foundation in your relationships. Once trust is broken and destroyed it is very hard to gain it back from me.

Has trust been broken before?
Yes of course. It happens to everyone at some point in their lifetime but it doesn’t mean it hurts any less when it does. Betrayal and broken trust can be very hurtful but it also makes you take a good look at the lesson it brings too.

Which is?
Well for me, it taught me to trust my intuition and to not fluff it off when red flags are raised. It also made me a lot more cautious in who I chose to give my trust to. But overall that gut instinct is golden and I have learned to trust that a lot more than anything. It has never led me astray when I chose to listen.

Do you forgive easily?
I do to a fault sometimes. I am very easy going and most times I give people chance after chance, however past experiences have also taught me that forgiving somebody doesn’t mean you forgive and forget. It means you are more cautious the next time and you don’t put yourself in that situation again. You also have to know when it is time to move on from situations and people if you keep getting the same results.

Do you hold grudges?
No and I don’t believe in revenge either. Grudges and revenge only harms you more than it does the person you are directing it at and it serves no purpose.

What is important to you in life?
Being the person I was always meant to be in spite of where I came from. Being able to help others and fulfill my purpose in life that God created for my life plan.

How do you know what your purpose in life is?
I just do. It has become clearer and clearer over the years and talking with and listening to God speak to me has confirmed it.

So you believe in God?
I do. Without the Great Creator we would be nothing so yes I do believe, love and trust in God.

What about religion? Do you believe in religion?
I have experienced many different types of religions over the years and there is one thing I know and that is organized religion is very different from spirituality. I do not believe you need to go through a religious organization to have a relationship with God. I prefer to have a direct connection with God so I go directly to the source and I have a close spiritual relationship with God.

What is the difference?
I’ve always joked that religion is for people who are afraid to go to hell and spirituality is for people who have already been. Don’t get me wrong, I think if people choose to be involved in organized religions, that is great for them and that is their choice. I can see how people would enjoy the fellowship with other like minded individuals and the direction it provides for their life. What I disagree with is many religious organizations try to put their followers into a box that is very limiting based on their particular belief systems and they truly believe their way is the one and only way to God. They are convinced their religious path is the only right way to heaven and I just don’t believe that. I don’t know about you, but my God is all encompassing and he loves everyone- no exclusions. My God is not about fear and condemnation. He is the ultimate light source of love and peace and joyfulness. You can’t tell me that God would condemn people to hell that live in other countries where their cultural beliefs differ from some religion here in the United States. People all pray to God as they know him in all different nations, cultures and languages and I believe it is all the same God whether he is known as God or by many other names. God cannot be confined to a small limiting box and neither should we.

And what about spirituality?
Spirituality is about that direct connection you have to God the life source. It is the relationship and the core of your heart and soul being connected to the light of God that gives you that joyfulness and peace in your life. It is knowing that no matter what God is always by your side guiding you, encouraging you, protecting and loving you. It’s about talking directly to God like you would a friend and being willing to be quiet enough to listen to his answers. I have many great conversations with God and I prefer my relationship with him this way verses through a religion that is more about following their way verses God’s way for my life.

What motivates you?
(smiling) Many things do. Watching the sun rise in the early morning hours. Listening to beautiful music that moves my soul. Hearing a child’s laughter and witnessing excitement and wonderful delight in their eyes. The sound of gentle rain. The desire to accomplish things on my own. There are too many things to name… my drive and passion motivates me too as does anger.

Anger? How can that be motivational?
When you harness that anger to make changes that are positve to your life. Anger about something stirs passion inside you and it can definitely be a great motivator to get you moving into action to make positive changes.

What are you passionate about?
I feel passionate about a lot of things but one of the most important ones is the prevention of child abuse and being able to help others who have been abused. I am passionate about trying to make this world a better place even if it is just one small positive action at a time in my little part of the world. Anything you put out to the Universe has a ripple effect so I prefer to make my ripple a positive one.

Do you really think that makes a difference in this huge world we live in?
Well there is a quote I am reminded of that I will use to answer this one:
“Anyone who thinks they are too small to make a difference has never met a mosquito.”

Great quote and with that I think I’ll end. Thanks for talking with me, we will have to do this again.

Anytime. You know where to reach me. 

Friday, July 15, 2011

My Guilty Pleasures!

So what's YOUR guilty pleasures? :)

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

We Are Our Own Worst Enemy

Ever wonder why America is in the shape that it is? I mean we see more diseases than ever before, the economy is messed up beyond belief, the crime rate is higher than it has ever been, our government is making very poor decisions that is actually doing more harm than good for the very people it is supposed to serve, jobs are disappearing at an alarming rate, people are losing their homes left and right and we are one step away from economic collapse and disaster.

Is it any wonder? I mean look at the decisions we have made… we are killing ourselves by the very decisions that are being made for this country. I believe one of the reasons we are seeing more disease in this country is because our country is too lax on checking the food sources that are coming into this country. After the fact too many times we find that harmful pesticides or other toxins or bacteria are in the foods that are being shipped here from other countries. How many recalls have there been on foods in recent years? When I was growing up, you never had a recall on food much less anything else because back in those times we still believed in quality and took pride in the products and services we made and offered. That was the American way. That certainly isn’t the case anymore.

My question is, why are we not growing 100% of our own foods right here in the United States? Why are we relying on some other country to provide the majority of our food sources in the first place? We get food from countries that would like nothing better than to see the US fall flat on its face. Don’t you think that is kind of like sleeping with the enemy? We have US farmers right here in the United States who have been put out of business because somebody in our government made the decisions to import our foods at cheaper costs yet they don’t want to provide the quality checks needed to make sure those food sources coming in are safe for us to eat. Sometimes I think it is a matter of being paid off to look the other way. You rub my palm and I’ll rub yours. Somebody profits from it, but certainly not the American people.

Not only that but did you know that farmers here in the United States are not even allowed to purchase bulk seeds that have not been chemically enhanced with harmful pesticides unless it is specifically deemed as organic? Have you seen the prices for organic foods lately? Who can afford that? In many cases it’s against our governing laws to purchase untreated seeds. I was reading an article about how restricted local farmers are in trying to grow foods that are safe and natural and the struggles they come up against. Even if agricultural farmers wanted to grow safe foods here to provide our nation with our own resources, our country is not permitting them to do so unless they buy what the government says they can buy. Isn’t that sad?

Do you know that the US is and has been genetically modifying and treating our foods since the early 90's? And on top of that they are not even required to tell us about it on the labels that our food has been genetically modified. Here’s a sample; 93% of soybeans in the US are genetically modified, 86% of corn, 93% of cottonseed oil which is what vegetable oil and animal feed is made from, and 93% of rapeseed which is canola oil. They were genetically modifying tomatoes however there was a large failure rate in the softening of them so they took them off the market because they weren’t profitable.

Ever notice that chicken today has way more yellow fatty substance gunk than it ever used to years ago? Well it is because they are giving the chickens special feed which plumps them up at a much faster rate so they can make a quick profit off of them in less time. Chickens take time to grow normally which are natural and much healthier for you. But anything grown the regular way and not chemical enhanced with pesticides and other harmful products that is considered purely natural is now called Organic and you pay a premium price nearly doubled or tripled for it as if it is specially grown. It isn’t specially grown, it is grown the way nature intended it to be grown. Our government is altering our food sources to grow them faster, preserve them longer, and enhanced them with pesticides to resist disease and pests, yet what is it doing to us in the long run? Do you think they have tested this long term to see what kinds of effects it is going to have later down the road?

When our farmers do grow crops here in the US, they are not getting enough of a good rate at the market to make a decent living at farming like our pioneering farmers once did. There is too much government interference busy taking out their portion of the whole pie to allow anyone else their fair share.

I would be willing to bet a million bucks that if somebody investigated, they would find a direct link to all these rampant medical issues we are seeing in today’s world and find they are a direct result of the consumption of these pesticides. How many years have we been slowly poisoning people? People are dying younger, people are getting many more diseases that were never even heard of years ago and organs are failing at a much younger age than they ever used to. Now we see teenagers falling over dead of heart failure, more cancers than ever before and other infectious diseases on the rise. It seems clear to me… we are slowing killing off each other by the choices our country is making.

While we are on the subject of poisoning the people, anyone who has ever seen a commercial for any type of drug on the market only has to go down the long list of side effects to know that these drugs are not safe to use. There is a push and a rush to get these drugs out on the market as quickly as possible so they bypass all the rigorous testing that is necessary to even begin to know what the long term effects are to people. FDA takes their share of the cut to pass it through quickly so people will start buying the product so the pharmaceutical companies, their conglomerates and the government can all get richer faster. It doesn’t matter if your nose falls off and your skin turns green, just as long as they make a quick profit on it.

It’s the same with the job situation...we are killing our own livelihood. As we ship more jobs overseas because it can be made with cheaper products and cheaper labor rates, we are drowning out our own countries resources and manufacturing trades. Why are we doing that? Because our government and politicians gives huge tax break incentives to large corporations to shift production overseas and not only that they allow corporations to offshore their profits in countries such as Cayman and Bermuda, etc…. What does that cost us? Everything. It’s killing the United States and we are seeing that more clearly now, but it still continues to happen.

First of all nearly everything in America is not American made. It’s made in China, and not only that- it is cheaply made, so it isn’t going to last, or as we have found time and time again, it is made with toxic materials that are harmful to our health. Remember the recall of children’s toys that were found to have harmful amounts of lead in them? Mercury lead, heavy metals that are having harmful effects and or poisoning our people. Again we are not carefully checking the products that come into our country that is a danger to the American people. And who cares if these products result in a few deaths? Apparently nobody cares because they keep right on doing it. Even products that are labeled as American made…. Where do you think they get the supplies from?? Ding!! Ding!! Ding!!! Yep you guessed it.... Other countries! It isn’t truly American made at all.

We wonder why there are bridges and roads collapsing and causing deaths and horrific disasters in this country. Well… could it be that we are getting sub-standard materials from other countries that are cheaply made? It’s already been reported that the steel we get from other countries is not the same steel that was made with the strength and endurance that we used to make right here in our own country. Again why?? Would it be the almighty dollar? It’s because cheaply made products means more money in profits in somebody else’s pocket and that means a higher and quicker failure rate.

When it does fail and we look to the company, chances are that big wig has already vacated the building and taken his billions of dollars and ran off to some remote island somewhere and left the mess for some other poor sap to deal with. There is no responsibility or concern for anyone except himself. It’s a dog eat dog world and every man for himself. That’s what greed will do to you.

We wonder why we are so hard pressed to find American made products made with the quality that we used to be so proud of. Well it might have something to do with American businesses selling out to other countries at an alarming rate. In fact did you know that most companies here in the United States are not even American owned anymore? Our American companies that we worked so hard to build are now owned by Japan, China, Italy, Germany, UK, France, Canada and a host of other countries. We have given all of our power away by selling out. If it ever came to it, our country could be completely wiped out and destroyed in a heartbeat if these other countries decided to pull out every company they now have control of and own.

American businessmen are laughing all the way to the bank because they already got their silver lining by selling out. And why again is this happening right under our noses? It’s quite simple…it’s because of the greed and the need of the wealthy businessman to line their own deep pocket. Greed is America’s downfall and it will have lasting effects that are going to be irreversible. You don’t believe me? Then do your own research and you’ll see. In fact you’ll find that American made is difficult to find here and the quality sure isn’t what it used to be. It’s all about how cheap can we make a product and still make a high profit on it. No wonder nothing lasts anymore the way it used it.

Let’s talk about crime rate for a minute. Gee I wonder why there is an increase in crime in the United States? Hmmm... Could it be that one of the first things our governing political figures we so proudly elected have cut in their budget is the funds for police and fire? Well duh!!! It stands to reason that if the jobs of the people that are there to serve and protect us in our cities are being cut left and right that there is going to be an increase in crime because there is not enough manpower to serve and protect so something is going to suffer. That’s a no brainer. You take a police division of 125 officers and cut it down to half and those policemen are not going to be out on the streets patrolling and protecting the people. They are going to be stretched as thin as possible pulling double shifts.

No wonder there is an increase in gang related activity because these gangs know they can get away with it because police are not able to take back the streets and protect the citizens. Oh and if criminals do get caught, chances are they will be out again on the streets within 24 hours because of the overcrowding in jails. Listen to any court docket and you will witness a mere slap on the wrist over and over again for serious crimes committed. Obviously it does pay to do crime because you sure as heck aren’t going to be serving the time.

Let’s see, Casey got off, OJ got off, Lohan keeps getting off and many other famous sports starts and celebrities never pay for their crimes. Those are only the high profile famous cases we hear about. It goes on continually on a daily basis. Money talks and criminals walk. Can’t fit them all in those deteriorating cells blocks because we can’t feed them either, that budget has been cut too.

Let’s face it our whole judicial system sucks. It is totally ass backwards. Criminals with lesser crimes serve more time than pedophiles get for abusing or killing a child. Rapists get out in a year verses somebody caught using drugs gets 15 years. Evidence is thrown out on technicalities’ while witness’s perjury themselves on the stand yet get nothing. You want to get off for your crime then plead insanity. If that’s the case, then you should automatically be locked up for life and strapped down to a bed in the nut house because obviously you are a danger to yourself and all of society. The list goes on and on.

Don’t even get me started on the whole correctional facility system because if it were up to me, there would be no recreational time, no TV time, no phone calls, no education, no mingling with other prisoners or any benefits at all for criminals. You would be placed in a cell 24/7 serving your full sentence. No time off for good behavior because good behavior did not land you in the slammer. If you are on death row, you go directly to meet your maker right from the court house when you were sentenced to death. There would be no 20 year span waiting while we feed and coddle your ass. You did the crime- you pay for it and you deserved the sentence you got. Period.

Why is it that anytime there are budget cuts they always cut the most important things that should be preserved? They go straight for police, fire and schools… What happened to no child left behind? I guess that flew out the window. I guess our government doesn’t think our children- the future generation, deserves the funds to keep their schools in operation. Education matters? That’s a joke because obviously it doesn’t or it would be a priority. Do you know how many school buildings are left abandoned or in shambles and disrepair because all the funds have been cut by our government and the state budget? There’s no choice but to close them down and shuffle all in the kids into oversize classrooms where they will not get the attention and learning they deserve.

Instead, our government likes to throw away our money on wasteful spending and to pay their own overblown saleries and retirement funds. Let’s not even talk about how many of our US dollars are going overseas to build schools there and feed the hungry in third world countries while we have people living on the streets here in the United States with no food to eat and no concern to even help them. We still have hurricane victims from New Orleans who have no homes and there are no plans to assist them to restore their home and life back to the way it was. No our government would rather send our US dollars to help foreign nations and spend our hard earned tax money they steal from us to fight wars.

Don’t even get me started on healthcare, the extortion of medical costs or the fuel crisis or many other political decisions that do not help the American people to survive. There is a local radio talk show personality that says “Wake Up America!!” and I think he has it right. The sad thing is that by the time anyone wants to do anything about this to turn it around, I afraid it will already be too late.

This national debt we find ourselves in… is a direct result of Congressional decisions. They are the ones who vote on virtually every single decision that is made in our country. I know they like to put the blame on the President’s plan, and they go back and forth blaming the Democrats or the Republicans or whoever the President is at the time in office but they the Congressional elected officials who sit in their ivory towers are the true core of who controls this countries decisions that are made for the American people. You want to blame somebody, then put it where it rightfully goes. ON CONGRESS!

We wouldn’t find ourselves in this mess had there not been years upon years of wasteful spending and letting other countries carry all our debt. You want to know who owns America? I'll tell ya and you might be surprised. Here is the breakdown: China holds $727.4 bn of our US securities, followed closely by Japan at $626bn, UK at 157.9bn, Brazil at $129.9bn, Russia at $116.4bn, Luxembourg at $97.4bn, Hong Kong at $97.4bn and Taiwan at $97.4bn so pretty much the Asian market rules and owns most of America. I’d say we are walking a pretty narrow tightrope and somebody is bound to fall and get hurt soon.

What will happen if we collapse? My guess is as good as yours. It’s a scary thought but we sure aren’t helping ourselves with the decisions being made today. It will have a lasting impact long after you and I are gone.

Better think again about them survival skills in my previous post, don’t ya think?

This has been a PolarBear rant and I think I am done now... Maybe. :)

Monday, July 11, 2011

Survivor... Nope- Not the Reality Show!

Yep Ole PolarB's been thinking again about deep subjects, so might as well put it out there huh?

What would you do if our world were to suddenly change and alter life as we know it today? Would you be able to survive? Have you ever thought about the possibility? What if the world changed so drastically that in an instant it caused a complete shutdown of the way we live our lives today? All the government becomes non-operational because it shuts down, all the banks all close, no businesses are open, no going to work to your job anymore. You may be thinking, I have money I can survive on, but what if all your assets have been frozen by the shutdown and are no longer available to you? No businesses are operating so you can't rely on credit cards to get gasoline or food or essentials, so what do you do?

Think about it.... there is no running water, and no electricity. What would you do? Do you think you could survive? Would you know how to survive in this kind of environment? This is not to mention the possible panic that would set in with people if this did actually occur. There could be potential riots and looting and violence, we've already seen evidence of this before in the news in situations that were not as drastic as I am talking about, so it's a sure bet this would be much prevalent. Would you know how to keep yourself, your family and your property safe? How would you accomplish that? Are you prepared to defend your life and valuables?

What if world disasters were added on top of it, like nuclear threats, flooding, fires, war and bombings? Where would you go? Are you prepared to take your family and get out of dodge to stay safe and survive? Do you know how to survive without the modern comforts we have so come to love and enjoy and take for granted? I would be willing to bet that a lot of people would have a complete meltdown and be in a complete panic crisis being reactive verses proactive and be able to focus and come up with a plan of action.

If you think this is pretty far-fetched thinking, don't be so sure. There are many people already thinking about this very thing right now and taking steps to ensure they will be ready in case anything like this ever does happen. I've asked numerous people recently and was surprised that many people I know were already preparing and stocking up supplies and creating a plan for themselves in case we do have a world disaster of this magnitude. Who do you think is most likely to survive if this does occur in our world? The people that are going to survive are the ones who are prepared!!!

You think this is crazy to even think about this? I don't. In fact several of my
friends have already brought up this very concern as a discussion because it is on their minds. A quick search on the web will show you how many people and companies are already thinking ahead and helping people be prepared for this very thing. There is a surge of companies gearing up devoted to dehydrated foods and teaching people to start stockpiling now in case of an emergency. Rice and beans in huge bulk quantities are already being sold and bought up by people in preparation. This action has already driven up the prices on these types of items in the grocery store. You don't believe me, go check out your local grocery store right now. Dried beans used to be about a dollar but the recent demand has driven the price up and you are likely to see the price doubled and tripled now. I've been watching the prices rise over time in the last year or so and that means I am not the only one with this on my mind.

There are survivalists training camps popping up all over the place to show people basic survival skills. There aren't people who are whacked in the head taking these classes and training. They are high ranking executives of companies, doctors, lawyers, military people and regular people like you and me who want to be able to have the skills to survive if the need should ever arise.

Think about the basics... can you start and build a fire without the use of matches or a lighter? Do you know how to purify your water or build a shelter? Do you have the tools needed to do those things? Do you know how to be totally self-sufficient without electricity or the luxuries we take for granted everyday? It would be nice if we could depend on being safe in our homes, but what if that isn't the case? What if looting and violence gets so bad that it isn't safe in your own home because riots start occurring and people are coming in and taking your things for their own survival? Where would you go? If you had to go somewhere in an emergency, would you be able to survive? Could you survive living off the land or in the woods? What would you need? What would you take with you to ensure your survival?

I am pretty confident that I would be able to survive out in the elements and nature. I feel pretty much at home in those surroundings anyway and I've always had a survival instinct since I was a kid and I am very comfortable in a wooded environment. But what about the people who aren't? Are you one of them?

I feel lucky in many ways because Lovie and I adore camping and I mean roughing it, so we have a lot of things already that are needed to make a base camp in the woods. We also have backpacks filled with all kinds of gear already for when we go hiking that has a lot of emergency stuff in it. As prepared as I am with those things,there are still things I would like to gather to make my life more comfortable in case it ever comes to having to be in full blown survival mode.

I am preparing because I know this world is changing rapidly, especially with the economy and debt crisis our country is facing today, however I really don't think times are going to get better for us, in fact I think it could get a whole lot worse. We have never experienced true hardship like other countries have because the United States is a very privileged nation; however that could all change in an

All the signs are pointing towards it and we are not going to be exempt forever. If you are paying attention to the world economy, the government's decisions, the housing crisis, the foreclosures, the loss of jobs, companies bailing out and going overseas, the unemployment running out and leaving people high and dry, the threat that society security won't even exist in a few years... all the signs are already there, you know it is coming. I just don't know when. But I would much rather be prepared than left out in the cold and not knowing what to do. How about you?

I asked one of my friends what she would do in this kind of situation and she said, I am not worried because there will always be money and that will help me and my family to survive. If your funds are frozen and not accessible what good is money going to do you? Social status and wealth may mean nothing in survival mode but knowledge... now that is the key to survival. I hate to tell her, but money isn't always the answer... it may have been in the past but the value of the American dollar is rapidly declining and it would surprise me if it became a worthless piece of paper. Maybe we can at least use it to build a fire!

Being smart and being as prepared as possible is a much better option, don't ya

Care to share your thought on the subject?

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Hi-Ho the dairyo...a blogging we will go..

Hey Peeps...

Boy I have been a terrible blogger lately haven't I? I go for days and weeks and even months without posting a dang thing!

I am totally out of sync with this blogging anymore. I used to write every single day and lately I find myself getting further and further from it... BUT I do love to write and NEED to make time for it. It isn't that I don't have anything to say, because I assure you I have plenty to discuss and write about but time has just been getting away from me. I guess you could say that life gets in the way sometimes but that is a good thing.

When I started a blog back in 2005, I didnt even know what blogging was.. but I caught on fast and I found I really did have alot to write about. It was fun and in alot of ways very healing and releasing to me too. When you take the risk and put your heart and soul out there in your writing, that is the kind of thing that connects with others because out here on the other side of this keyboard is a real person with real emotions and feelings connecting with other real people reading on the other end. We all made some really great connections with people that we had never met in person but in some ways you got to know people on a much deeper level too in some instances.

I stopped writing because of one of those connections. A long term relationship I developed over time not just online but in person too, ended abruptly and I ended up being hurt because of it. So I felt it was time to pull back the reins and I was very disappointed in that I trusted somebody I thought I knew pretty well and found out I really didnt know them at all. I didnt know that somebody could be so cold and callous with other people's feelings and not only that but dishonest and hurtful to another person for no real valid reason. That isn't the way I operate and I don't treat people like that. I wouldn't treat a stranger that way much less somebody who was supposed to be a friend. So I ended the relationship. Even though it has been a couple of years ago.. I still don't get the why of what happened and I probably won't.

Anyway... I pulled back drastically and closed myself off to being open with others, especially online. I found that I no longer had anything to say and in alot of ways I see this as a self protection mode which was okay. We all have to do what we need to do and especially in today's day and age when online predators are rampant, it is good to not put yourself out there so much. We tell kids not to post things online for their safety and we should listen to that same advice!

The only down side to that is that alot of the things I wrote helped alot of people. Alot of my own life experiences and healing journey helped other abuse survivors so to not share in that way was a bummer. So I started a new blog on Yahoo 360 geared specifically towards healing from sexual abuse and it reached alot of women and was very helpful to alot of people. But Yahoo pulled the plug on their 360 site and all my words and blog disappeared into thin air. POOF! It was gone.

I have other resources that I use to reach survivors and give them helpful hints but it isn't quite the same as blogging. But honestly my life has been pretty great and I have been really enjoying living my life with joyfullness. I guess you could say I am doing what every survivor of abuse hopes to do.... THRIVING!!! That is a very good thing. So alot of the things I wrote about in previous years are not alot of things I experience now.

It has been fantastic to live life on my terms and to enjoy each and every day. I still want to help others and I most definitely want to continue to write, but finding the time and the place to do it is the challenge. I also don't want my blog to be just about surviving and abuse. I want it to be about all kinds of things. Things that are interesting to me, things that are interesting to you, things that are interesting to read. But mostly I write in a blog because I enjoy writing. If somebody happens to read it, that's just icing on the cake.

So hopefully I will get back to writing a bit more because my fingers are itching to stroke the keyboard.

Bear Hugs,
PolarB ;)